when DumMies r exis??

tiMe nie..kamI bru BaLik drpd diBlnja Makan drpd Team TM GA menara..

hdiah wang tunai smpena amazing race msh ada...sbb tuh dorg blnja kami skli..sbb kamipn sbhgian team TM ok..hehe...
ps mkn..ak xblik opis..memandangkan tggl bpe jam je lg..n opis pn dah la jauh..cm ptah2 blik..
aleh2 ps mkn g tgk muvie cte "the sorcerer apprentice"
muvie yg ok..ost pn ok...besh2...
sblum tgk muvie...kmi wat muvie..
huhu....

~SeNgAL~

.: Muke Pasrah Aje Kene TumBUk :.

.: Mata JuLing, Anak Spe r NIehhh.... :.

.: HuH?? :.

.: Mulut Senget, HdUng kemBang :.

apa Kje ak Klau Sedih O Stress??

nie r kje ak...pling uTama n PerTama adalah:-

xsedap ke Sedap, sumbAng, MerdU o Lunak...2 BlaKang Kire..yg Penting..pe aKu buat Nie ntuk Release my Mood "Tensi" so i will cHeer Up for The Next Day...hehe =)

Nie Aje r Dri Mula Smpi Akhir...klu Aku BUsan nie r keje Aku..so mmg org dah thu..ak xde bnda len nk bt slain karok..haha...
org mngkin dah busan tgk ak cmnie..len org len cranya kan..so len org len hobinya jgk kn..
so apa cra korng???

Tika Aku Sedih..........

time nie Ak tgh Date ngn BF ak...tgh2 date ada r plak SmS Msuk...smpi xthan menitik air mta nie mgwal kemarahan...ats dsr sms yg sngt menusuk ati....

ak cuba kawal prasaan ak..tp mlngya still nmpak dri kca mata ku....c dia cuba menenangkan ku...tp ak nie murah air mta...akhrnya msa yg biarkan air mta itu kering dgn sndrinyaaaaaaaaaaa.........

KaLau.....

KalaU Aku AnAk KuraNg Ajr....
knpa AKu dilahirkan di mUka Bumi Ini???

KalAU aku SeorAng yg BiadAp....
Knpa akU cKp sumeNya org xbLeh Nak Trima, seAndAinya ak hnya brCkp ntuk Phak YG bnar??

KalaU ak SeoraNg Yg BerkIra..
aku keje ps SPM, evendO gAji itu hNyalah perMulaan hdup ntuk merasa Duit ats usaha kte sndri n xptus ntuk bg pda insan yg kte syg...tp knapa d mta dorg kte brkire? sdgkn sume itu hsil ttik pluh kte sndri?? kte berkJa ada mSnya ikt turn..kalU sume org Lepas tngn n Hnya kte sorg je yg buat n mngeluh ntuk brkre ats dsr tidak adil..pttkah org pkir kte nie berkire??

Kalau r aku kakk / Adik yg tidak Baik....
sggupkah seorang adik yg menolOng kkaKnya mncAri tmPt Praktikal, dgn mmkirkan kkak x akn dpt tmpt yg dicarinya? xlayakkah skiranya adik meminta kkak ntuk blnja adik dgn elaun yg dpt drpda pertolongan seorang adik??

kkak mmberni nshat ntuk adiknya ntuk mju?? xsggup tgk adik bli brg drpda kkak sndri..adik laki ak nk bli kmera ak dgn hnya ntuk guna 2mggu?? bg pnjam sudah..xde mkna nk kre2.

KaLau r Aku sEoraNg Kwan yg KcaNg LupaKan Kulit...
xkn ada msanya ak mncri kwn2 ku tika sklh rendah lg..ssguhnya aku bukan seorang yg sdemikian...ak bukan ak yg dlu..bnyak kenangan lalu yg xdpt ku igt...seolah2...sume ksah silam ku dek luput di igtan...

KalAu Aku SeoraNg GF yg Jahat / wat eva....
ssguhnya aku sygkan mereka dalam diam....ak bukan jenis luahkan ngn kta2....tp tgkah lakuku....
aku mrah..aku degil..ak curang..ttp ak sygkan dia....dri mana plusuk kalau memerlukan...ak sdaya upaya ntuk dtg menemaninya......

ermm..kalau r sume pndang ak buruk..
apa perlu ak buat di muka bumi ini lg????

FragiLe

Hi Alll….

A very good morning! It’s Friday !!
Wat hot story in me?? No more….

Felt down..down..down…. (lagu jay sean r kan…) huuu.

Moody je mggu nie..evendo new moon pn dh lepas tp rsa cm pns aje nk mrh org n sume serba xkne..
Spe yg terkena tuh…gua lg mntak maaf…temper xle control r plak kan…
Cuba kwl tp sumtime xle..so sembur2 r kan..haha…

I tink I shuld go to anger management..so I felt calm..relax..njoy…
Cm amik dadah r plak kn..huh..perlukah?? hehe..

The reason im like this..bcz of myself aje pn…knpe n mngapa..
Mgkin sbb emotion control your body..not ur minds..
So this wat I got!

Temper ngn akk ak yg ati kering 1 hal, asik nk jg sume org pnye atikan?
Ak pnye ati, ko sbgai kakak ada prnah mgalah? Fkir pnt aje? Ada fkir ak yg kje nie?
Stakat bru praktikal..2 bru sbulan..blum kje ntuk smpi ko sra hdup?

No komen…pkir2 r sndiri ea..nmapn kakak…

Then the other reason that emotion over the body, cz last blog I ve mention about how do im frust wif sum1.
Now….not anymore…
The reason y im saying this is bcoz when I do hoping so much…tp last2 xde hasil…rsa dh pth smgat ntuk truskan lg…

Trjdi sbb perubhan ssorg tuh slps g tmpt skian2, n ak trtnya2 apa slh n silap ak..last2 ak cuba bt2 perkara tuh x blaku hgga 1 thap..ak cuba ntuk lepak bersama
As a fren us to be…
Dlm lepak…I notice that….he kept playing with his fon n texting sum1..so…
That shuld be stop..enough is enough..

U want the answer, now u know it kan???
Xyh nk sbuk tnya lg..tuhan dh tnjuk kt ko dpn2..

Mlm tuh ak btul2 bt ak pkir…bak kta kwn ak..ko pkir sgt..ko kne confess kt dia yg ko suke dia..tp
Bile dh thu cmnie..xpe r..bt pe nk ckp lg dah…

Then g kje..kwn ak cite sal mslh dia ngn husband dia..3rd party come in their life..
Im a good listener ok…dgr2…last2..

Menitik gak air mata ini….fragilenya ak bile dgr cite dia….
Her story make me tink…y lelaki simply make women so fragile, n make them whatever they want..
Did they tink how we felt?

If men outhere ckp permpuan skung sma aje..pnh ke tgk prmpuan nk wt sgt?? Bgku jrg skali..
Klu dia nk wat pn kjap aje tuh…sbb mgedik pnye psal r kan? Cm ak xpernah bt..(huhu)
Tp a’a’a…ak xgedik ngn laki org o bapak org k..
It’s not my type..

Smpang malaikat 44, mntak jauh sume tuh….

Cite dia bt pngajaran bg ku ntuk lg matang n ntuk kte thu apa akan bkal kte lalui time kte dah khwin nnti…
Bgku hrpan ku untuk dia kuatkn smgat n mntk xde ppe blku moga kekal smpi bile2….

Amin….

~Fin~

If i Ever Cross Ur minDs??

tOdays Mud end of WeeK in JulY...

sgt mikirin...knpe ssh sgt kali nie ak nk bt2 pkra e2 tdak prnh blaku...

sgt mustahil.....

sgt payah......

sgt sedih......

wondering if i ever cross ur minds??
how did u felt about me?? disspointed? hopeless? Angry?

MajUk?? no la... Frust?? myb....then??

my weekEnd this is fully furn..which is my Class is already Started..

YEAY!! my student life is COming..
wat A day on Saturday..study skill in the morning continue with class afta that n lepak in jgk wif my luvly fren!!

study skill?? bak kta ayh ak.."agh xperlu g la...dh mhir blaja!!" huhu..nuts...
Class guing smuth r..evendo subjek killing me softly..n cant find one of the student wif the same course as mine!! where there have been??

zasss!!! gone already kot! huhu.... aleh2 kls ngn snior2..mntak advice..1st of all i suggest that keep want to start with the hardest one..but when i just realize like the 1st time i was in poly..the 1st move must b scored! ntuk cri tapak ass..kte kne kkuhkan bwh..then i realize...i du make a mistake..n must to change ASAP!!!

so need some advice from my dad..n nk tgk2 blik slibus apa time sem 1 dlu kt poly..mgkin cmne ak leh bt dr sgi itu...

then move to lepak in ngn member ak....just trkzut gak bnda jd lepak...kli ni...ak xbriya2 pon...just im ok..mna nak? tuh aje r kan....

dgn pnt xhengat...dh cam apa je mlm tuh...nk tdo tp xle...last2..came out wif 1 soklan that killing me again "ko ngajuk ke jna??" wat da.... nk ckp apa pn tgh pusing..n xle nk ckp...

majuk?? no la.... frust?? myb.......

aik?? apa kes dorg tgur...one of them seemly knows about my c2action....he such a stalker...noty! haha...then i just said that...frust skit..tp xde kne mngena ngn korng..i just want to kept that away n muv on...tp i cant take it alone.. it hard to do sumting when we deal with sumting rarely bt felt like we deal with every day..
nk keep like nuthing happen...im not a type that gurl..
evry ting shows in my face! how came i want to survive..

i want to let it go that night..but word cant describe it anyting...
so we take off n they take me home...odw to home...we hve a little chat which they knows who im talking..n i kept saying that...i just frustt..not with them o him....wif my self.. i wanna change n trow away my bad attitude..but its so hard...cz when i want to avoid that..it will be kept coming n coming..over n over again...like cant stop it!! argh!! tensi!!

they gave me a some advce too..but so disspointed cz..dh nak smpi bru ak leh ckp... n apa dorg ckp tuh bg ak..btul..
"xkn nak gali kbur n tnam dri sndri kan??" so make me tinking..how can i do dgn cra tidak mmkiran bnda itu sudah pn berlaku..how do i react? i dunnoo..

mlm tuh ak xle tdur..nk ngis sume ada...tp air mta cant do anything..tdo2 aym gak ak mlm tuh..
mmkirkan dia....knpa ak rasa xle nk lpskn ssorg tuh bgtu mudah...tink n tink..
padahal kls kol 8 nie..ak trkebil2 hmpir kol 3 ntuk tdo....last2 tdo..tp kol 5 trjga cz sume1 mskol me...tkjut gak...cz bile brdpn tuh..xbnyak kot ckp..n dia pn cm react like that xde pepepn blaku...so jmpa xjmpa gak r kn mlm lepak tuh....then we have a little chat skit...cte sal kls kol bpe n end pkol bpe..last came with..

Sender :dh hbs klas meh r lepak ngn ak
me : perlu kew?? (dlam ati nak, tp boleh ke ko brdepn ngn dia jna oi??..huhu)
sender : klu rsa xperlu xpe r....apa2 bgtau ea..study elok2
me : ok..
sender : tc tau..mwahx... =P
me : (pkir gak pe nk jwb, pkir cm xnk jwb pn ada), then.... ok..u too...daaa....

sllu ada gak blas pe dia text tuh...expcially nk gedik2..mwahx r kn..aleh..."daaa" sudah...huh...

ends wif that..cont with...

ZzzzZZZZZ....bgun g Klas!!! lalalala......

end of the day i can realize that :-

:felt so Dummies & Pathetic, when u had a bad Day, & thats the feeling will pop u naturally:

JanGan PerNah BerUbah

JanGan PerNah

........BeruBah

AboVe mention Song Dedicated especially to me, my fren n my love one's

for me..once new life coming which gonna b a part time student n employeed hope nothing can change the way i treat people, the way i do n dont's, n everting la..hehe..

for my frens, hope they dont disspointed if the way i dont have time with lepak in..to do all the stuff n fun 2gether2...hope y'all out there can more support me from behind..im still ur frens..i never refuse to regret a fren whos has banned me like before or kecik ati..im so sorry ok...

last but not least for my loved once...hope they never change @ me, the way we can spent time 2gether but now..had a limited time, this is 4 our own sake n future...collect duit ntuk khwin jgk kan..no metter i do hope u more2 understand me the way im use to be before n not compare for now or future..also 2 my family...i do this bcz need more respect and to be matured also can manage wat gonna happen next..whos know...

hope y'all can accept me the way im before n need more supportive n never ever change, so that i can move on till success..........

i knoe this song cm xde kene mngena r kn..tp lirik dia pointed to "jangan pernah berubah"..i so sentap cz when the time dis song kt giant beli brg ngn fmili..

rsa cm nak tujukan lgu nie pda ssorg..* i guess y'all outhere knows who im referring to*..but so so *sight*....xpyah nk hrpkan lg..sbb dia pn ngn cra dia..xyah r kte nak desakkan?? so..

hope njoy..jgn pity2 or sedih2 k..
huhu.....

Biarkan waktu teruslah berputar
Mencintai kamu penuh rasa sabar
Meski sakit hati ini kau tinggalkan
Ku ikhlas ‘tuk bertahan

Cintaku padamu begitu besar
Namun kau tak pernah bisa merasakan
Malah kini kau ucapkan selamat tinggal
Membuat keresahan

Reff:[*]
Kau Meninggalkanku tanpa perasaan
Hingga ku jatuhkan airmata
Kekecewaan ku sungguh tak berarah
Biarkan waktu terlelap

[**]
Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah
Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah
Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah
Tak relakan yang indah hilanglah sudah

Back to Reff:[*] , [**]

Jangan pernah kau coba untuk berubah
Ku relakan yang indah dalam hatinya

need U now!!

to all my special one's out there..
wondering how ur felt when the time by pass right now..how ur feeling at me rite now.
haha..
ak mggu nie mood swing plak ngn "tet"
haha..
gilaks..

just need to share if do "them" trbaca or terjnguk or trjmpa blog ak nie..

this is weveral thing they shuld know from bottom of my heart rite now!

1. Im SO SORRY
2. I Need U as my Frens like Before
3. cant stop thinking about u

dedicated this song for them

me & Songs

This week is “lesu” “tired” “mood swing” and su un r…

Just dunno how 2 describe my feeling in a week..
Felt happy @ outside, but sad in inside…
Evendo kje just 4 days cz senin 2 im guing to site visit @ submarine & earth station TM..
Lawatan smbil blja…dh kje pn kne ada gak bnda2 nie..hehe.. =)

So blik pda swing2 td..dlm kdaan nie r..ak asik dgr lgu sedih spnjang ke mana ak g..
G makan kt café bwh time sarap kt opis..kdai psang lgu sume cm sentuh prasaan kot..ak pn pet ah lg…ngn mood cmnie mula r nk mncari lgu2 cm 2…

Evendo kje bnyak still nak cri lgu2 ntuk layan prasaan nie.. (tgkap leleh r)..huhu.

Dh download siap burn ntuk dgr time drive…supaya lg sayu je..haha…org cri lgu ceria2..nie x..lagu.sadis2..♪♫♪♫

Nie r snarai lgu yg ak burn ntuk dgr nnti (kompilasi Gurls Power!!!):-

1. Nora – Secebis Harapan
2. Ajai & Kris Dayanti – Hati ini telah dilukai
3. KD – Im Sorry Goodbye
4. Anis suraya – Cinta tersimpul rapi
5. Rahimah Rahim – Hati Yg rapuh
6. Siti Sarah – Ke hujung dunia
7. KD – kamu di hatiku Selamanya
8. Misha omar – hingga ke akhir nnti
9. Misha omar – Riwayat cinta
10. Nora – Hanya Satu
11. Nora – RenunGan terakhir
12. Siti Sarah – Bersamamu
13. Siti Sarah – Saat Hilang cintamu
14. Siti Sarah – Kesetiaan
15. Rossa – Takdir Cinta
16. Rossa – Hati yg kau sakiti

SayOnarA JUne, Ta Da July

yeah!! finally JUne arios (bye2), July benvenuto (welcome)!! (italy vesrsion)

hjung bulan 6 nie xbnyak cte nk updates...bit murung n suke diam tetiba..mlainkn org gile yg wt lwk gile bru leh nmpak ak gile...huhu..

bit frustrated wif sum1 that, b4 he is leaving to Kuching 4 outstation..when he was there..just felt he is totally diff b4 n afta guing there... xtaw r pe kes kt sna.just the way he treat me..just not like the way b4..sgt frust bile dia wat cm 2.. klu bnyak tnya kng..tkt kta menyibuk n so on.. tp dlm ati nie mmg resah bile xdpt 1 msg drpd dia n trasa fkir bukan2... smpikan thap klu itu yg dia nak..ak xkn ggu n ak akn tkr nom ak spya dia xkn cntct ak lg..evendo kwn dia ajk lepak...dia ada skli, ak xkn ckp sepatah pn ngn dia.. (2 r dlm otak nie fkir bukan2)..haihhh..pe r ak nie..kalut... xtaw r kan..trllu amik brt kt org..org x fkir lak sal kte.. sedih sgt..

then the other story is about my fanatic fans yg ak rsa..klu ak jmpa dia..ak lgr dpn2 ngn kreta ak..siap bt 4ward n backward bnyk kali..haha.. KEJAM!!..pdn muka dia..ak dh agk dh nie kes geng2 hairul busuk tuh..sbb no dia dh dkt2...mmg xslah n sahih lg kukuh iaitu c MUADS aka BenjI!! uwerksss nama xhengat!! (pic bwah).. sbr r ea..ak jmpa ko siap r!! haha...

.: Muka Fanatik r sgt :.

Skip on that..next week 17hb mulanya hdup n cbran bru bg ak..huhu..UTM ak xsbr nk dtg nie..gile sngap blaja..tetiba...(ak smemangnya dah ting tong) huhu... ppepn ak kne amik kd matriks ak..xsbrnye..

will upload n updates soon...cao amigos!!

F!b3RaiL AmAziNG Rac3

Race Da Lepas, tp ak Still xupdate sal ari kjdian..hehe..
im not a reporter ok?..got it!

event yg diBuat Ntk Customer Trdekat or wat can i Say that we Dealing wif..especially when duing Sales!! so nma cusTomer that we r Dealing is FIBERAIL...hehe..

pe yg Wat ak nk JUin msuk Race nie cz My boz Sendin Email hope that we can juin 2gther2.. and dunt want to miss out the Place that we can Stay after da event..
walaweeeeiiii wa ckp lu..tgk pic nmpak gmpak..bile g..lg gMpak kot!! huhu..

4 the 1st time to Make a Grup..we r Decided 2 bring 1 of our MadNess Crazy mmber kt TM c Azhar botak, cz My grup x Ckup sorang..yg ada Je, HJar n HUbby also me..so KLu bleh mmBer nak 4 r kan..so kMi pn Merisik dia kt Menara..maLangnye..dia xdpt nak juin Sbb dia adaKonVoy Ngan Mmber2 dia..so sad ='(

cuba2 pkir nak bwk spe..then last gruP kmi Bwak CiK Ikan KellI a.ka. KembuNg..huhu..
(gile Jht Gf)..then ajk2 gak c Yaya n Her Team, Illa, AchAm (YAya BF) n Aiman X keSah.. the mAdness Crazy had jUst Begun...

JUmaat Briefing, GoodIe Bags n SO on..& the Days Start 2mrow!! bgun awai kot..hehe..
prepare sume n lets MOVE!!! hehe..

FLags Off n we reAdy 2 GO GO GO!! dpt je 1st soalan..ak rsa..xle pkir kot...aleh2 kongsi2 jwpan ngn GenG yaya..sdorg dpt jwpn, tp smpi kt pit Stop Sg BUloh, Kami yg smpi dlu..
pit Stop 1 adalah cbran FizIkal kmi...amik Bola Ping POng ngn petak2 kecik kt dlam 2 ada Elektrik..mak aih...SERAM!! dh r ak nie Eltrik dlm Bdan lju je.. nak xnak kene g sbb lobang2 2 agak kcik skit..n mgkin ak sorng r yg xkene berbnding ngn grup mmber ak..msg2 mrgut skit kot kene..hehe..fuuhhh~~~~ nsb tgn kecik..papepn moh r kte ke tmpt strusnya..

ke IPOH maLI...mulanya r soalan2 yg agk cbrsgt2!!! mNe xnya..RACE ini dbuat ntuk "TINK OUT OF THE OFFICE (BOX)". so xde2 yg kait ngn opis lg..sbgai pkrja @ student dlu2..pn xterpkir soalan yg cm tuh..

g TnJUng MaLIm n AKhrnYa ke PENAng, Its oUr pit Stop..."GoLden Sands Resort" is Waiting 4 US!!! xsbr nk tjun KOlam KOt..dh lma xswimming...like cite dori n memo..dori sang "keep swimming" "keep swimming"....sbb 2 r xsbak nk mandi nieh...
mlm dinner dsjikan mkanan ala2 BBQ n Western...SGT HEaven sbb bnda2 mkn cmnie r ak nek bdan tau x!! haha..n I LOVE IT SO MUCH!! mkn xyh ckp r sume ak bedal.salmon tuh..pergh..rsnya bpe kali bedal.. tp ppepn besh..dlm2 mkn2 2 r kte ada lucky draw, ulang tyang gmbr n cm2..n i do got lucky drw n top 15 team yg still leh menang n x qualified..hehe.. ppepn layans...

so ahad kte p ronda dr hard rok~ns.kndar~Pasembur~ferri~KL...xle cte pnjg ntuk jln2 pn..haha..
ak rsa smpNjng 2 ari tuh..ak jd SETAN kepada MAKANAN..sumbat asl boleh..n ak rsa NEK KOT BADAN NIE HAAAAA!!! xshuke..xshuke!!..huhu

pic sume kt fb..moh p tgk sana..