FragiLe

Hi Alll….

A very good morning! It’s Friday !!
Wat hot story in me?? No more….

Felt down..down..down…. (lagu jay sean r kan…) huuu.

Moody je mggu nie..evendo new moon pn dh lepas tp rsa cm pns aje nk mrh org n sume serba xkne..
Spe yg terkena tuh…gua lg mntak maaf…temper xle control r plak kan…
Cuba kwl tp sumtime xle..so sembur2 r kan..haha…

I tink I shuld go to anger management..so I felt calm..relax..njoy…
Cm amik dadah r plak kn..huh..perlukah?? hehe..

The reason im like this..bcz of myself aje pn…knpe n mngapa..
Mgkin sbb emotion control your body..not ur minds..
So this wat I got!

Temper ngn akk ak yg ati kering 1 hal, asik nk jg sume org pnye atikan?
Ak pnye ati, ko sbgai kakak ada prnah mgalah? Fkir pnt aje? Ada fkir ak yg kje nie?
Stakat bru praktikal..2 bru sbulan..blum kje ntuk smpi ko sra hdup?

No komen…pkir2 r sndiri ea..nmapn kakak…

Then the other reason that emotion over the body, cz last blog I ve mention about how do im frust wif sum1.
Now….not anymore…
The reason y im saying this is bcoz when I do hoping so much…tp last2 xde hasil…rsa dh pth smgat ntuk truskan lg…

Trjdi sbb perubhan ssorg tuh slps g tmpt skian2, n ak trtnya2 apa slh n silap ak..last2 ak cuba bt2 perkara tuh x blaku hgga 1 thap..ak cuba ntuk lepak bersama
As a fren us to be…
Dlm lepak…I notice that….he kept playing with his fon n texting sum1..so…
That shuld be stop..enough is enough..

U want the answer, now u know it kan???
Xyh nk sbuk tnya lg..tuhan dh tnjuk kt ko dpn2..

Mlm tuh ak btul2 bt ak pkir…bak kta kwn ak..ko pkir sgt..ko kne confess kt dia yg ko suke dia..tp
Bile dh thu cmnie..xpe r..bt pe nk ckp lg dah…

Then g kje..kwn ak cite sal mslh dia ngn husband dia..3rd party come in their life..
Im a good listener ok…dgr2…last2..

Menitik gak air mata ini….fragilenya ak bile dgr cite dia….
Her story make me tink…y lelaki simply make women so fragile, n make them whatever they want..
Did they tink how we felt?

If men outhere ckp permpuan skung sma aje..pnh ke tgk prmpuan nk wt sgt?? Bgku jrg skali..
Klu dia nk wat pn kjap aje tuh…sbb mgedik pnye psal r kan? Cm ak xpernah bt..(huhu)
Tp a’a’a…ak xgedik ngn laki org o bapak org k..
It’s not my type..

Smpang malaikat 44, mntak jauh sume tuh….

Cite dia bt pngajaran bg ku ntuk lg matang n ntuk kte thu apa akan bkal kte lalui time kte dah khwin nnti…
Bgku hrpan ku untuk dia kuatkn smgat n mntk xde ppe blku moga kekal smpi bile2….

Amin….

~Fin~

If i Ever Cross Ur minDs??

tOdays Mud end of WeeK in JulY...

sgt mikirin...knpe ssh sgt kali nie ak nk bt2 pkra e2 tdak prnh blaku...

sgt mustahil.....

sgt payah......

sgt sedih......

wondering if i ever cross ur minds??
how did u felt about me?? disspointed? hopeless? Angry?

MajUk?? no la... Frust?? myb....then??

my weekEnd this is fully furn..which is my Class is already Started..

YEAY!! my student life is COming..
wat A day on Saturday..study skill in the morning continue with class afta that n lepak in jgk wif my luvly fren!!

study skill?? bak kta ayh ak.."agh xperlu g la...dh mhir blaja!!" huhu..nuts...
Class guing smuth r..evendo subjek killing me softly..n cant find one of the student wif the same course as mine!! where there have been??

zasss!!! gone already kot! huhu.... aleh2 kls ngn snior2..mntak advice..1st of all i suggest that keep want to start with the hardest one..but when i just realize like the 1st time i was in poly..the 1st move must b scored! ntuk cri tapak ass..kte kne kkuhkan bwh..then i realize...i du make a mistake..n must to change ASAP!!!

so need some advice from my dad..n nk tgk2 blik slibus apa time sem 1 dlu kt poly..mgkin cmne ak leh bt dr sgi itu...

then move to lepak in ngn member ak....just trkzut gak bnda jd lepak...kli ni...ak xbriya2 pon...just im ok..mna nak? tuh aje r kan....

dgn pnt xhengat...dh cam apa je mlm tuh...nk tdo tp xle...last2..came out wif 1 soklan that killing me again "ko ngajuk ke jna??" wat da.... nk ckp apa pn tgh pusing..n xle nk ckp...

majuk?? no la.... frust?? myb.......

aik?? apa kes dorg tgur...one of them seemly knows about my c2action....he such a stalker...noty! haha...then i just said that...frust skit..tp xde kne mngena ngn korng..i just want to kept that away n muv on...tp i cant take it alone.. it hard to do sumting when we deal with sumting rarely bt felt like we deal with every day..
nk keep like nuthing happen...im not a type that gurl..
evry ting shows in my face! how came i want to survive..

i want to let it go that night..but word cant describe it anyting...
so we take off n they take me home...odw to home...we hve a little chat which they knows who im talking..n i kept saying that...i just frustt..not with them o him....wif my self.. i wanna change n trow away my bad attitude..but its so hard...cz when i want to avoid that..it will be kept coming n coming..over n over again...like cant stop it!! argh!! tensi!!

they gave me a some advce too..but so disspointed cz..dh nak smpi bru ak leh ckp... n apa dorg ckp tuh bg ak..btul..
"xkn nak gali kbur n tnam dri sndri kan??" so make me tinking..how can i do dgn cra tidak mmkiran bnda itu sudah pn berlaku..how do i react? i dunnoo..

mlm tuh ak xle tdur..nk ngis sume ada...tp air mta cant do anything..tdo2 aym gak ak mlm tuh..
mmkirkan dia....knpa ak rasa xle nk lpskn ssorg tuh bgtu mudah...tink n tink..
padahal kls kol 8 nie..ak trkebil2 hmpir kol 3 ntuk tdo....last2 tdo..tp kol 5 trjga cz sume1 mskol me...tkjut gak...cz bile brdpn tuh..xbnyak kot ckp..n dia pn cm react like that xde pepepn blaku...so jmpa xjmpa gak r kn mlm lepak tuh....then we have a little chat skit...cte sal kls kol bpe n end pkol bpe..last came with..

Sender :dh hbs klas meh r lepak ngn ak
me : perlu kew?? (dlam ati nak, tp boleh ke ko brdepn ngn dia jna oi??..huhu)
sender : klu rsa xperlu xpe r....apa2 bgtau ea..study elok2
me : ok..
sender : tc tau..mwahx... =P
me : (pkir gak pe nk jwb, pkir cm xnk jwb pn ada), then.... ok..u too...daaa....

sllu ada gak blas pe dia text tuh...expcially nk gedik2..mwahx r kn..aleh..."daaa" sudah...huh...

ends wif that..cont with...

ZzzzZZZZZ....bgun g Klas!!! lalalala......

end of the day i can realize that :-

:felt so Dummies & Pathetic, when u had a bad Day, & thats the feeling will pop u naturally:

JanGan PerNah BerUbah

JanGan PerNah

........BeruBah

AboVe mention Song Dedicated especially to me, my fren n my love one's

for me..once new life coming which gonna b a part time student n employeed hope nothing can change the way i treat people, the way i do n dont's, n everting la..hehe..

for my frens, hope they dont disspointed if the way i dont have time with lepak in..to do all the stuff n fun 2gether2...hope y'all out there can more support me from behind..im still ur frens..i never refuse to regret a fren whos has banned me like before or kecik ati..im so sorry ok...

last but not least for my loved once...hope they never change @ me, the way we can spent time 2gether but now..had a limited time, this is 4 our own sake n future...collect duit ntuk khwin jgk kan..no metter i do hope u more2 understand me the way im use to be before n not compare for now or future..also 2 my family...i do this bcz need more respect and to be matured also can manage wat gonna happen next..whos know...

hope y'all can accept me the way im before n need more supportive n never ever change, so that i can move on till success..........

i knoe this song cm xde kene mngena r kn..tp lirik dia pointed to "jangan pernah berubah"..i so sentap cz when the time dis song kt giant beli brg ngn fmili..

rsa cm nak tujukan lgu nie pda ssorg..* i guess y'all outhere knows who im referring to*..but so so *sight*....xpyah nk hrpkan lg..sbb dia pn ngn cra dia..xyah r kte nak desakkan?? so..

hope njoy..jgn pity2 or sedih2 k..
huhu.....

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need U now!!

to all my special one's out there..
wondering how ur felt when the time by pass right now..how ur feeling at me rite now.
haha..
ak mggu nie mood swing plak ngn "tet"
haha..
gilaks..

just need to share if do "them" trbaca or terjnguk or trjmpa blog ak nie..

this is weveral thing they shuld know from bottom of my heart rite now!

1. Im SO SORRY
2. I Need U as my Frens like Before
3. cant stop thinking about u

dedicated this song for them

me & Songs

This week is “lesu” “tired” “mood swing” and su un r…

Just dunno how 2 describe my feeling in a week..
Felt happy @ outside, but sad in inside…
Evendo kje just 4 days cz senin 2 im guing to site visit @ submarine & earth station TM..
Lawatan smbil blja…dh kje pn kne ada gak bnda2 nie..hehe.. =)

So blik pda swing2 td..dlm kdaan nie r..ak asik dgr lgu sedih spnjang ke mana ak g..
G makan kt café bwh time sarap kt opis..kdai psang lgu sume cm sentuh prasaan kot..ak pn pet ah lg…ngn mood cmnie mula r nk mncari lgu2 cm 2…

Evendo kje bnyak still nak cri lgu2 ntuk layan prasaan nie.. (tgkap leleh r)..huhu.

Dh download siap burn ntuk dgr time drive…supaya lg sayu je..haha…org cri lgu ceria2..nie x..lagu.sadis2..♪♫♪♫

Nie r snarai lgu yg ak burn ntuk dgr nnti (kompilasi Gurls Power!!!):-

1. Nora – Secebis Harapan
2. Ajai & Kris Dayanti – Hati ini telah dilukai
3. KD – Im Sorry Goodbye
4. Anis suraya – Cinta tersimpul rapi
5. Rahimah Rahim – Hati Yg rapuh
6. Siti Sarah – Ke hujung dunia
7. KD – kamu di hatiku Selamanya
8. Misha omar – hingga ke akhir nnti
9. Misha omar – Riwayat cinta
10. Nora – Hanya Satu
11. Nora – RenunGan terakhir
12. Siti Sarah – Bersamamu
13. Siti Sarah – Saat Hilang cintamu
14. Siti Sarah – Kesetiaan
15. Rossa – Takdir Cinta
16. Rossa – Hati yg kau sakiti

SayOnarA JUne, Ta Da July

yeah!! finally JUne arios (bye2), July benvenuto (welcome)!! (italy vesrsion)

hjung bulan 6 nie xbnyak cte nk updates...bit murung n suke diam tetiba..mlainkn org gile yg wt lwk gile bru leh nmpak ak gile...huhu..

bit frustrated wif sum1 that, b4 he is leaving to Kuching 4 outstation..when he was there..just felt he is totally diff b4 n afta guing there... xtaw r pe kes kt sna.just the way he treat me..just not like the way b4..sgt frust bile dia wat cm 2.. klu bnyak tnya kng..tkt kta menyibuk n so on.. tp dlm ati nie mmg resah bile xdpt 1 msg drpd dia n trasa fkir bukan2... smpikan thap klu itu yg dia nak..ak xkn ggu n ak akn tkr nom ak spya dia xkn cntct ak lg..evendo kwn dia ajk lepak...dia ada skli, ak xkn ckp sepatah pn ngn dia.. (2 r dlm otak nie fkir bukan2)..haihhh..pe r ak nie..kalut... xtaw r kan..trllu amik brt kt org..org x fkir lak sal kte.. sedih sgt..

then the other story is about my fanatic fans yg ak rsa..klu ak jmpa dia..ak lgr dpn2 ngn kreta ak..siap bt 4ward n backward bnyk kali..haha.. KEJAM!!..pdn muka dia..ak dh agk dh nie kes geng2 hairul busuk tuh..sbb no dia dh dkt2...mmg xslah n sahih lg kukuh iaitu c MUADS aka BenjI!! uwerksss nama xhengat!! (pic bwah).. sbr r ea..ak jmpa ko siap r!! haha...

.: Muka Fanatik r sgt :.

Skip on that..next week 17hb mulanya hdup n cbran bru bg ak..huhu..UTM ak xsbr nk dtg nie..gile sngap blaja..tetiba...(ak smemangnya dah ting tong) huhu... ppepn ak kne amik kd matriks ak..xsbrnye..

will upload n updates soon...cao amigos!!