1st prepare

sekarang dah msuk bulan MEI.

prepare untuk weds sudah pn giat dijalankan.

terutama untuk mencari butik yg dapat mengikti krieteria budget.

selapas mcm2 kjadian, aku bersyukur, ada jugak dalam diam, ada jugak org untuk membantu ku dlm pemilihan pelamin or dpatkan pakej yg aku cri2 selama nie.

gra2 pkir pasal kdaan rumah. smpai aku alpa ttg wedding ku.

bukan alpa tp malas nk fkir. apa nak jd, jd r.

aku beriya karang, aku yang patah ati tgk kdaan skeliling.

apapun aku buat apa yang aku nak.

siapa tak sedih, bila pasal preparation wedding.

mak ayah sendiri tiada di sisi untuk membuat decision.

smuanya atas bahu aku sendiri.

bila tgk video wedd dlm utube evendo artis sekali pn, mak sentiasa di sisi anaknya untuk buat plihan

pakaian, gift, kad, n pelamin.

but for me? i dont felt that way.

dont b suprise, evendo belah lelaki, bukan stkat mak, smua adik bradik, abg ipar turun pdang tgk adik sndri nk g fitting bju sanding. aku?

forever alone.

sya bukan mengharapkan simpati drpada mana2 pihak.

if u are in my shoe. how did u felt? 

sorok seboleh-bolehnya perasaan sedih itu.

sbb tu kot, bila aku tgk vid weds org, stiap kali selesai sudah akad nikah. aku pasti akan mengalirkan air mata.

bukan kerna suka, tp air mata sndiri tuh mengalir mcm tanda lega. 

like beban yg aku tanggung sekarang lepas smuanya.

aku menunggu masa itu nnti.

this time, syukur kpda tuhan, anak buah tunangku yg dptkan pakej butik yg ikt pada bjet ku.

dapat drpada MAFA fair (xtau apa nama pemeran tuh) hehe. pameran yg diadakan d SACC mall

last mnit bnda dh nk ttup kedai, ank buah dia deal hrga n aku time tuh plak xtau ada pameran tuh, rushing drpda rumah g cpt2 ntuk grab the chance.

and akhirnya kami dapat jugak. alhamdulillah.

thanks to them sggup tunggu kami evendo time tu ada bzday celebration ci anak buah dia yg rekemenkan butik nie kepada kami. 

how nice of them.

semangat ku kembali ntuk prepare for the wedds telah kembali.

who know, pejam celik dah bulan 7.. bulan 1st fitting kami, sbb smlm dah amik ukuran untuk custom made our sanding outfit + bju nikah ku.

tak sabar nk tggu apa hasilnya. harap designer dpt gmbran apa yg kami kehendaki.

doa2kan smuanya berjalan lancar.

Biar apapun....

Biar apapun

yang terjadi aku tetap akan menegakkan keadilan

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yang berlaku, aku tetap pertahankan hak aku sendiri dan juga keluargaku

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yang terjadi padaku, itu semua qadak'dan qadar bagiku

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yang akan berlaku, aku hanya berserah pada tuhan.

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yang org sekeliling inginkan, akan ku tetap menjadi diriku juga

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yang orang cakapkan, aku mmpu mendengar, percaya atau tidak belakang kira

this is what happen when people are just not thinking about themself anymore

when marah + pendam + tak puas ati + dendam + benci = bunuh diri

agak2 btul tak apa yg aku cakapkan ini?

mgkin dalam erti lain, kta mmg tidak akan pikir apa kita nak buat or akan berlaku,

tp itu sja jalan yang kita nmpak n mudah untuk selesaikan masalah

tujuan @ motif bunuh diri?

bagi smua orang senyap and puas ati?

tapi adakah kita tahu orang yg kta dendam, marah, benci itu puas ati bila kita tiada?

tidak sama sekali.

malah tuhan pn akan membenci kita sekali.

aku cuba pertahankan apa yang benar, dan salah cuba untuk diperbaiki n diperbetulkan

mmg setiap perubahan bukan dengan sekadar yang segera

tapi mengambil masa.

semua orang akan sebegitu juga.

tapi tidak pada org yg ingin penyelesaian dengan kadar yang segera

caranya dengan bunuh diri.

adakah kita cukup amalan untuk bunuh diri? pkir org sekeliling kita? trutama org tersayang?

adakah kita sudah cukup ntuk mntak ampun?

ini hasil pergelutan aku dan jugak my mom yg cuba ntuk bunuh diri.

agak ganas dan jugak sakit ku alami itu bukan pengalang

aku tetap akan pertahankan apa yang sepatutnya aku lakukan sebagai seorang anak.

biarpun cacian, perit, makian yang aku terima

itu adalah mak aku. aku sebagai anak, apapun yang kluar drpada mak aku itu benar and adalah doa

aku pasrah dan terima seadanya.

biarpn aku ada jgk perasaan tidak puas ati, degil pada mak aku sendiri sebelum ini

tp smua ini aku lakukan, bukan untukku sahaja

tp ntuk keluarga.

evendo tergadai nyawaku sekalipun.

kali ini, air mataku bukan lagi pengiringku ketika nk tulis entry ini.

hanyalah harapan dan doa semuanya kembali kepada normal semula.

muka sya selepas kejadian.

smile and crazy as always ^_^

andai itu takdirnya

pemikiran ku tidak tenang,
hati ku terlalu resah.

apakan jadi pada diriku dan jugak famili ku kali ini.
segala qadak'& qadar telah tertulis
andai itu yg bakal aku dapat.

kali ini, kepada siapa aku akan pergi?
mak? Ayah? atau bukan pada sesiapa?

aku bukan seorang yang kuat lagi.
bukan pada luar malahan dalaman juga.
hanya tuhan yg tahu apa yg aku alami.

tika dalam untuk mendirikan masjid ku sendiri.
tuhan telah berikan banyak petunjuk buatku ntuk aku tabah n belajar situasi itu.
tp aku tidak mampu ntuk terima smua ini.

terlalu besar tamparan dan cabaran kau berikan di saat ku cuba untuk berdiri.
tapi sayangnya aku berdiri hnyalah dengan diri sendri bukan dengan kekuatan adik-adikku.

kalau aku tidak pernah amik thu pasal kedaan rumah; masakan aku akan buat ini:-
-kemas rumah
-masak untuk adik2
-beli makanan kucing (evendo bukan tanggungan aku- sbb yg nak bela kucing adalah mak aku)

adakah ini adil untuk aku terima penyataan tersebut??

mak aku mengadu, ayah dah bgtau mkanan kucing bukan tggjwb dia sbb dia sndiri yg bukan nk beriya bela kucing2 tp itu pada mak aku.
duit makan, ayh bg cukup2.

itu ke aku tak pernah amik tahu kdaan rumah?
anak siapa snggup lihat mak mengadu dalam kedaan sebegitu?
evendo ketidak adilan selalu berpihak kepada diriku.
tp aku tetap akan mengalah, aku tundukkan ego ku.

aku dilahirkan dengan "murah air mata".
mgkin ini la hakikatnya.
tak kira waktu, air mataku tetap akan mengalir tetapi bukan pada orng yang terdekat aku menangis,
tp pada aku selalu bersendirian.


cuba untuk kuatkan diri. tapi mata ini tidak dapat untuk menipu keadaan sebenar.
aku bukan sengaja elakkan berjumpa dengan teman2 pada tika ini.
tapi hakikatnya aku tidak mahu kwn2 ku melihat kedaan aku yang sebigini.
aku tidak mahu kawan2 ku tahu beban yang aku cuba selindungi.

bukan kerna ingin memendam perasaan secara sorang2.
tapi bagiku. aku malu n tidak tahu bagaimana untuk bercerita.

Ya Allah, tolong tabahkan aku ntuk smua ini.
sekarang masalah di muka pengadilan.
aku hanya berserah pada smua ini.
andai itu jalan yang benar.

A post in Month of March

this current month. is a quite challenging for me!
family problem
wedding planner
school studies

even-do i don't intend to tell/story in here.
but for me, lets it keep into my self.
nak cerita pn, nnti pjng bejela.
n ada nnti menitiskan air mata.

what can i do for my blogger, i just givving a hint of the challenging thing a bit ok.

family problem - mksud yg ini dh jd twice berlakunya.
rasanya my sis (H* and Y*) di opis knows about it. when the time, i do have to take half day leave ntuk balik rumah dlm kdaan menangis depan mereka.
but this time. i dont.
simpan dalam2 perasaan menangis tuh sbb i dont want people know that am a weak at that moments.
cm perumpamaan "hard at the outside, but soft in the inside"
tu lah ungkapan yg boleh i do gambarkan for my self right now.

tiada siapa akan sedih if this happen when the time we do want to get married.
nak ada kta sepakat tuh mmg susahlah kalau msing2 dah ada ego msing2.
so ppepn, me, i and myself...forever alone.

kalau wedding thing tuh, nk kta rushing pn, stakat nie ada la progress.
evendo bnda dah lama buat.
quotation sume dah ada. so kne make a choice which to choose and to go.
and make the booking la.

pasal studies plak, dah kta student. bnyak plak homework nya.
this year, am planning to clear all my calculus pnya subjek.
sbb ps kwen dah tak nak pkir psal nombor. lagi2 subjek akaun.
spe2 yg kenal aku. mmg payah la "DEBIT KREDIT" nak lekat dlam kepalaku.
huhu.
boleh jd klau amik subjek cmnie lepas kawen. bleh terberanak aku di buatnya (kalau ada rezeki ntuk pregnant). huhu.

tuh yg agk "studentholic" this year.
also attend to memulihkan CGPA dgn skorkan sume subjek calculus.
tp ada jgk slack dlm statistik.
lect kedekut mrkah! menci.
hehe..pepepn dh lepas.
so sem nie nk skor balik for account exspeciallynya.
hehe.

so which me luck!!
and that all for my post in month of march.
tak tau lgi bila akn ada cite yg bru ntuk bulan nie lgi.
~XoXo~

Shapping to the MAX!!!

evendo weds pn xlama je lg..

badan ni tgk asik mkin bulat aje

trutama muka n perut yg comel nie.

dah macam2 produk, barang yg cuba..

tp perubahan nk turun tuh agaklah macam 50/50.

nk kata ada prubahan pn rasa cm tak nampak

sbb tuh la 50/50.

hehe ^_^

this year, aiming is ntuk susutkan sikit perut n ketembaman pipi yang ada

makan nasi time malam. mmg la jarang.

makan tuh ada gak makan tp mesti sebelum jam 7.

blik keje trus makan.

sbb kat rumah mmg dah jarang makan.

terpaksa makan if, mak dah penat masak, and kena teman ayah makan.

kalau tak rezeki tuh menangis je kan.

about pipi plak..

i do using "face massange"

which its look like this

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tiap kali lps facial, amik benda nie

urutlah seperti mana yg nak la.

brapa lama tuh pn sama terpulang

but am doing about 10 - 15 minutes cukup la

sedang layan tab / i-pad / tv ke.

boleh r muka tuh di urut2.

mana nak dapat?

daiso or 100yen (kedai jepun yg harga barang semua rm5)

xperlukan modal yg banyak pn kan??

then for my tummy.

dah mula berjinak2 pakai Spanx and korset

kalau spanx, mine is like this:-

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pada mulanya korset tuh adalah saiz mak aku yg saiznya M

tp bagi aku yg patut badan S pada mulanya skung pakai M

ha, boleh nmpak bezanya la kan.

pakai benda ni bila g opis. sbb kat opis la kita asik duduk je.

sbb tuh la kot prut memboyau..hehe

n disusuli tambahan kapsul "orang kampung"

ada 2 jenis: either minum or telan

but i do prefer telan

sbb takut dikecewakan dengan rasa tea yg selalu aku minum aka boh tea / lipton.

telan pn makan kapsul je

letak kt tekak, minum air banyak2..

mmg dah tak rasa ubat la kan..

hehe..

hasilnya..sila telan time kat rumah

kalau kt opis, pastikan lokasi tempat duduk anda betul2 dekat dgn tandas

mmg akan ke tandas la lepas tuh.

itulah rutin shapping aku ke arah "slimming world"

whether i can make it or not?

hendak seribu daya, tak hendak seribu dalih.

Barang Hantaran checklist

For Him to her

1. Bag - Done

2. Shoes - Done

3. Watch - Done

4. Cincin - Done

5. Makeup / toiletories - Done

6. Perfume - Done

7. Baju Langkah Bendul (xsure lg klau xjd langkah, so xpyah la)

8. Quran & telekung - boleh cri kt mana2

9. Sireh Junjung & Cek duit hantaran - smggu nak nikah dah boleh prepared.

For Her to Him

1. Wallet & Belt - Done

2. Shoes - Done

3. T'shirt & Jeans - Done

4. Perfume - Done

5. Toiletories - Halfly Done

6. Sireh Junjung

7. Watch - still seeking

8. Technology gadget - it shuld gave to me, tp dah i pnye list dh ckup trpksa bbuh kt dia

9. Sejadah & Quran

10. still tba

11. still tba

itu je lg kot yg blum prepared. tak thu nk letak apa lg dah.

kalau tak kerana bju lgkah bndul tuh, rsanya item boleh lg shortlisted.

tp who know, last minit nnti mesti ada je yg brubah.

a bit of B2B

so far, study break for a month, is fully bz with the wedding thing-ing.

takut nnti time dah start sem bru, sibuk n no time to the planning and searching.

i know is a bit lambat lagi ntuk prepared and so on just like 8 month to go

but for my mission is "The fatest u done everything, the more time u get rest!!"

betul kan?

and the more you didnt think about it.

because i dont like kerja last minit.

mmg itu bukannya NURUL JANNAH ROSLI.

it seem all my freind knows my "that" atitude.

but my family didnt!!

semuanya nk last minit n most important is nak murah.

mana nak dapat dalam zaman ini? bayangkan la..

nak murah boleh dpt, tp hasil kerja msti sama ngn harga yg kita bayar la kan.

so u want for something, u have to find it on your own way.

ooo...sungguh pening.

now i know, bertapa susahnya nak kahwin.

kdg2 gak terpkir cmne la org yg kahwin zaman muda..

yg budak2 lagi lingkungan 18 - 19 years old??

how they could do that thing so fast??

planning, kumpul duit, komitment.

patutlah skrang nie bnyak je issue, cerai-barai, luar nikah.

rsanya bnda smua tuh tak pikir n tak dalami.

a bit of shame with that.

kalau nk berhujah, melayu mmg mudah lupa

tp kita pn manusia biasa. allah yg tentukan qadak n qadar.

if u pull out sgt dgn cara kita pn.

kalau tuhan dah tentukan itu jalan kita.

kena la bersiap sedia right?

sumetime, am bit scared for all the mariage thing

this is not about my family problem so that i can get out of that way

and not thinking about them on single thing.

it just, am ready go for it just by myself

and right now pn, dah terasa smua benda macam buat perkara tuh,

buat dgn sendiri. tanpa bantuan dorg.

kita lah yg cari catering, pelamin smua, jumpa org.

dorg?

goyang kaki. bab time nk bayar tuh la pndai lak bersuara mahal bgai la.

sees??

pening kot!!!

(geram-geram)

k la, cite bnyak pulak.

huhu..

nak email smua vendor right now..

p/s: muga2 dapat yg kenan di hati ngan bajet yg diberi.

Short vacation - Destinasi Bajet

Date:: 28 & 29hb Jan 2012

Duration: 2D1N

Venue:: Pangkalan Balak, Melaka

event planner:: Ruby aka Rabiatul Adawiyah

Estimated price collection: MYR100 each person

Going:: 7 Adult 1 Child

Member: Jenny (me) N Kelli (fiancee)

Raby o Ruby N Naim

Ieda N Khor

Zaty N Qistina (Ank Buah Raby)

Entry kali nie is about small N Short vacation for our BFF newly Weds

which Ieda_abadiea aka Ieda.

dah lama plan nk g bercuti ngn mmber2 selalunya tak pernah menjadi.

tak tau pak kali ni, smuanya alhamdulillah berjalan lancar.

klau iktkan aku tak boleh pergi sbb thu2 lah perangai mak ayah aku

smuanya tak boleh.

smpi bila kta nak cmni, smpai bila kita tak merasa.

klu tak kerana kawan2 n my fiancee, i do have sweet thing to memorable it.

thank to all of you yg menjayakan vacation nie.

Itinerary kami::

Day-1

Mandi

BBQ

Jalan2 bazar malam bandar hilir

tido

Day 2

Mandi

Makan Pagi Sekitar pangkalan Balak

Jalan2 Bandar Hilir

Balik

Pic will be up soon once smua pic dpt..

since dat time i dont bring my camera with me..

^_^

I Never Told You

Just aware about new song from Colbie Caillat

"I Never Told You"

I miss those blue eyes
How you kissed me at night
I miss the way we sleep
Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want you
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Every time I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to when I'm not
Around you
It's like I'm not with me

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
I can't believe I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No I never told you
I just held it in
And now I miss everything
About you
(still you're gone)
Can't believe that I still want
You
After all the things we've
Been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

i love this song so much.
its suits me perfectly and serve me right
what am saying this because i just held it in what am supossed to do or to say it. now am crazy and cant take my eyes of this evertime i sees

but thing will be never remain the same
past is past
we do have to moving on
let the memories remains the same

i dedicated to this person which do have this photo on profile

what a lame me *silly*

oh minggu exam.
how tiring to do so many thing at once.
work, study and also preparation for my wedding.

lately am also got so many weird dream.
horror, not so bad dream = bad and wat so eva.

1st dream is about not so bad dream *equal to* bad
is nothing bad at all, it just why this dream shuld be happening at this first place
i dont ever think anything before slept.

normally la. if we do think something before sleep.
it came out in your dream.
like permainan tidur.
the thing you haven finished yets but you wanted so badly to do it and ends.

last week..(i cant recall which day it is.)
that night i do got dreaming something that i should do it in the past.

i dont know how, or remember, did i just do think to much about someone?
i dont think so.

something about a guy. (definately him)
i really want to talk to him, how am felt towards him.
but that dream show that, with all just happen onward or in the past
no matter how harder am trying to get him to told him that "i love him"
it just i cant says it infront of him. and the result is,
am just started walking and left him behind without single words.

but back then i do notice that:-


but for me:-


the 2nd dream is about horror to the death dream.
cmne la boleh end up the dream camnie.
boleh dreaming about someone who just came to my house and all the sudden started to record my cats voice with the weird editing voice
i dont know how to describe it.
but something that sure we barely not notice it was a cat. *sort of like mengilai cara garang*
and yg record to bukan someone but its somthing ok.
somthing yg mmg tak boleh nampak dengan mata kasar.

n dalam mmpi tuh, boleh notice one of my fren (i dont know, cmne boleh ada member plak kat rumah time nie)
namapn dreaming kan. huhu.
once she heard that noise came from outside,
her looks like pale as like seing ghost.
and that all of us started panic till the death ok.

nsb mmpi nie tak belarutan. sbb jam loceng dh bunyi ntuk siap g kerja.
haha.
apa pnye dream la.
mcm2 kan?

you know me rite. klu mmpi tuh smuanya nak pelik.
n u'oll baca n layankan aja kan?
hahha...

sje je nk menghupdatekan blog sblum dok ngadap buku stady.
huhu.

*tata*

Down to earth

entry kali ini nk cecite mngenai
"down to earth"

what is this??
u'oll know what this perumpamaan??
ada yg thu ada yg tak (i guess la)
klu tak thu u'olls bleh g00gle it
now internet d hujung jari ma....

apa kaitan perumpamaan nie pada diri i??
is all about my eyes actuallynye

i never talk with people or my frens or any one that can be sure our eyes meets.
like playing "looking through my eyes"
this game i definitely sure wins
tp bila time bercakap our eyes meet.
sure "KALAH"
automatic pnye eyes to mesti down to earth.

even with my fiance or wat. he never talk to me with our eyes meet.
we sure cant talk klu dah jd cmnie. sure blank or dah tak igt apa nak di bualkan lepas tuh..
huhu.

sbb i mmg suke tgk mata org klu time bercakap la..kebiasaannya.
or i sendri tak thu, mata i pandang mana bila bercakap??
ahaks...blurrr kejap..

one of my clique sudah menemui my weakness already nmpaknye.
for sure she want to teasing me with that.

its started when we do want to chat with our eyes meets.
then the result is....
my eyes sure started to look somewhere else..just like down to the earth.

now am started to knows that i cant talk to people with our eyes meet.
my weaknesses.
waaaaaaa.... :(

mula2 tuh tak percaya la jugak kenapa i tak boleh bercakap kalau our eyes meet.
then second situation happen with me in the class.

am just talking with my classmate (a guy)
talking about our assignment.
pada saat itu dan tika itu.
am very sure.. i do talk to him looking rite through his eyes.
nmpak jugak la dia cm pndang tempat lain
tp i dont mind pn..
mgkin i pn rasa cm tu bila bercakap ngn org. org nmpak mata kita ke lain kan?

tetapi once this guy balas balik talk that we do have discuss and straight looking through my eyes.
my hearts just like "doki..doki" (heartbeats sure beat faster than before)
haha...
sure i pulak yg trus "down to the earth"

maybe that the reason i cant talk with people with our eyes meet.
"doki..doki" is everywhere.
to be safe lets just looking down to earth.
SELAMAT saya tau...huhu..
no doki..doki...sure can talk easily..

so this is it..
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p/s; dont talk with me with eyes meet ok..
plssssssssss....huhu..nnti dah tak mau bercakap kang..bru tau..hehe

Diasy & A moment to remember

Just a quick review for korean movie
tak tau r kalau u'olls dh tgk sblum i.
i kan lambat skit dalam bab2 nie..
lg2 korea movie or japanese

i suka baca manga je..
and a bit of drawing them
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.:Daisy:.


and

.:A moment to remember:.


this two movies definately make me cries a lot
ok..a lot
so if u'olls nk tgk.
pls sediakan tisu berkotak2 kalau korg kuat menangis
kalau tak. amik tisu 20c je dah ckup.
hehe

sy sudah jtuh cinta dengan hero kedua-dua crita ini tau.
nmpak dia sgt romantik and mature to handle the situation it have.
wah..cair kjp.
huhu

.:Jung Woo Sung:.


so apa lg..sila la tgk ye.
OST pn sedap gak nk dgr.

b2b

hizzz..

today entry is about b2b (bride 2 be)
am guess today onward about this kot.
u know..
am gonna be bride soon ok!!
hehe.

tak sbr n nebes melampau 2...not that way la.

how my b2b progression?
so far, all the hantaran are completely within a year before wedd.
i guess when planning engagement.

for my side la. just a couple like telekung, sejadah and Qur'an
yg msih belum dibeli.
last mnit nnti beli r kot.
it just am started buying yg penting2 n yg rsnya harga dia yg agak melampau poketnya.
huhu..lampau ke.
ikt kemampuan n kepentingan. bukannya kehendak. right?

wedding ring? - check (dah order dah..tggu nak byau je)

how so early buying?
am kept buying and collect when SALE time is coming.
so when is about wedding.
hantaran is not in my mind anymore.

just pkir big thing like pelamin, dress, make up and so on.
how tiring u know.
to kept thing in track.

for me time management is most importantly.
right now. 1 month for 1 thing ive to make sure have done.

dewan currently dah dpt kata hitam putih.
so date pn dah ada.

now planning, booking, survey sume dh ptt kena wat.
nk hrapkan parents especially bnda2 cmni.
their side is all about money.

for me, the best thing i can get with the best price.
i love survey n nego most.
hehe..
siap r sellers.

tp sygnya, sllunya apa yg kita nak mesti parents reject tau.
sadis.
dorg nk khawin ke kita nie?

so terpaksa r cari lagi n survey lagi..
on and on.

i will list down nnti link2 ntuk b2b if i do got with all yg bg i best price
and best services.

*tata*

Teaser Pre-Wedding

lupa nak update ttg ini.

2 minggu lepas i do got a job from one of my BFF who get married this coming sunday (11.12.12)
which is to take her PRE-Wedding of her n *chenta*

sblum nk g Jakarta n sblum i do got a lot of things to do especially on assignment and test.

what i could do to cheer her up for bride to be kan? so am willing to this like sponsoring :)
mula2 tuh nk set time and date agk sukar sbb groom kita nie super bz.
sian bride kta have to kept waiting
so do i.
sian kan saya?? huhu ^_^

bukan stakat tuh sahaja. ngn kdaan cuaca yang tak menentu..
bnyk tol cabaran nk tngkp pic time tuh tau....

tp pe kan daya.
ngn berkat doa n usaha
akhirnya pre-wedding ini dijayakan oleh pihak saya n jugak en.tunang (kemana saya ada mesti nak ikt) huhu..we do like a magnet kan?
hehe

.:sempat lg bergambar:.

so hasilnya cmne?
here u go:-







to reader out there would like to make an inquiry
just email me ya
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tq

today story it just for quick one.
i just wanna say
.
.
.
THANK YOU!!

whether is to:-

god
*make me breath until now*

family
*either good or the hard time, am just a daughter that wanted her families go well: end up with turn my temper down a bit more before am left to my new family*

you
*my fiancee especially - always the one stand by my side either when its fire or in the rain*

friends
*bf/bff/gf/skandal-mandel/room-mate/house-mate: in a happy time and the sad time*

and
to those people who knows about me
*jiran/musuh etc: whose always make my day tak kira apa jua berlaku, i still dont know what could happen next*

warkah - ku ingin kamu

1st of all,
i hope u'olls can guess what it is about according to the tittle?

giving up already?

ok... its acctually the name of our song dedicated to one of us.
sort of la..
but salah 1 nya, i yg dedicated to him
tp for him, i admire his voice for that song.

btw him? whos?? my fiancee?
nah...
he is not a typical guy who can accept gul dedicated song.
cz gul love song so slow..haha...
it just like not his soul song.
so sgt sedihlah kan spe yg dapat dia.
hehe..but i do got him already kan?
lalalala~~~ trima je la..

so who is him?
is one of my crush!
the one we do meet at "tagged" (if you can remember when time myspace n tagged nie hanggat lg)
when the time am diploma i get to know him
why i do crush on him?
its all bcoz he look and his voice
his look like one of the malaysian twin football (zaquan n aidil)
klu skali pndng,
klu dua kali pandang, dah bukan ok..haha.

n the other one is his voice, cz dlm tagged time tuh
the 1st social network yg boleh ltak video bagai (so far i remember la)
so ada video akustik lagu romance - Ku ingin kamu (as mention on the tittle-->for 1st song)
dia nyanyi ntuk siapa tuh, lantak pi lah kan..
so sbb tuh lah crush on him for this.

so, we do get well to know each other as usual peer to peer.
and u'olls know wat,
when am social networking, i do realy realize that most of i meet or chat with the guy,
is the guy is around melaka, johor or negeri sembilan only yg dapat ngam ngn i
yg lain tuh, cm hi hi then bye bye.
and dia nie orang johorian ok :)

so we do knal hampir nk dkt 2 thun tolak cmpur tiba2 menyepi and sort of la
and i do thank god that i've meet him and freind with him

time diploma tuh, ada projek akhir kena wat business on pper work
at that time sblum bg idea kt penyelia
mmg dah blank hbs r tak tau nak buat apa
asik idea kna reject je
so last2 my team came out to buat Cyber cafe
evendo time tuh mmg hangat pasal it nie kan.
n si dia nie time ni ada r kje kat cyber cafe, like ada share skit ntuk business kt jb time tuh

apa lagi, i tidak mmbuangkan masa ntuk mntak dia tlg.
akhirnya kami dpt one of the best group and successfull projek in business
evendo it's just on papper only.

why do am social networking time2 mcm nie?
as u can see, i nak cari guy yg boleh bantu i ntuk siapkan projek2 i
haha..
itulah motif i.. bukan nk mngedik or else
it just about how do you can handle the work in the easy way.

thanks to him cz his effort to help me out. and bnyk jgk r guy yg jd mangsa i ntuk projek akhir tuh..huhu
tp i tak sekejam itu ntuk lepaskan freindship that we got
yela, dah org tlong lps tuh tak nk kawan plak..
tak de la smpi cm tu.
sbb tuh i bgtau, hmpir 2 thun i kenal dia.
tp pada guy2 lain yg end up je pas projek hbs am sorry ok..huhu.
bnyk sgt nk layan..semak kpala plak..hehe..

btw, dia ni agak panas baran orgnya. tp apakan daya.
sbb dia hensem, sy jadi air pn tak pe.
haha..

kami tak pernah sekali bertemu. smuanya hanyalah bergantung pada sms
and call once dah dpt no masing2.

ada jgk niat ntk bertemu, tp jarang skali pertemuan kami dijodohkan
ada je halangan.
sbb tu kami tidak bersama sbgai kekasih lain. bak kta org tuhan tuh dah tnjuk, jodoh it not in our hands
so end up dgn as a friend.

and pernah skli ktorg cuba ntuk couple jarak jauh.
tp still tak boleh sbb org panas baran ni, sifat syak wasangkanya agak tinggi sama skli
lg2 bila dah jrak jauh.
so simpan hajat je la nk truskan hubungan itu.
tp still we do end up as a friend.

nth cmne, kalau couple ada je tak kena, tp as friend we manage to go well.
pelik2.
tp akhirnya slepas sthun hbs blaja, kami masing2 menyepi, diam tanpa berita
i do got his number. tp nk sms kerap mcm dlu dah tak sama.
sbb takut if interupting him or else. right now lg jrang nk sms or pape sbb dia dah kahwin
tak nak ada kaitan ppe psal ngn dia pn. tkt ggu rumah tgga org.
simpang malaikat 44. mntak jauh ppe syak wasangka klu ppe jd.

sblum kami msing2 mnyepi tuh, i do dedicated this song to him
"warkah by bau - ost sinderella" (2nd song according to the tittle above)
i dont know why am giving him this song

as u can see, it just am the one who like to left him behind
ikt tittle pada lagu tu la kan.
tp tak de mksdpn cm 2..
if let say, he heard this song. hope he can remember about me
if we do lost contact and so on.

and finally smlm (24/11/11) sblum msuk tido, tkjut dapat message from him.
tnyakn khabar smua. n i do touchable when one of his message is
"saya sllu igtkan nrul bila dgr lagu yg nurul bg bila tetiba trdgr lagu tuh"
n lg 1 trsntuh bila dia ckp, sedih tak dpt lg video raya yg sllu nrul anta kt dia ucap slmat ari raya.
wahh...sedihnya..
(tak boleh bt lg ok..u sudah kawen ok!!)

wah..all the sudden.
him make me cry and my sleep is like in heaven that night
hehe..
smpi c2 je la msg kami malam tuh akhirnya n kembali pada menyepi n buat hal msing2 balik.

that all about the tittle of the day..
bg sesiapa yg tak pernah lagu nie. feel free to cri and dgr ye.. :)

x0x0 jenny

Kurang Selesa A.k.A AWKWARD

y ha, after done wathcing all the series drama either on tv or in the web,
my virginity to wrote in the blog are suck it up??
haha...

now it about time the 2nd drama on MTV that ive been followed.
it's just me whos the one want to watch that drama aka episode??
or is because the story line is suite on me?? or just like no body cares??
that what i call this episode "AWKWARD"

not to mention is the heroin on this episode called "Jenna" or full name is
JENNA HAMILTON.
can you see the similarity on this?? "jenna" n "jeeee nn ahh"??
huhu..




.JeNna.


.Matty.

.Jake.

"Awkward" is about the specific incidents in our formative years that define us-
sometimes for the best and sometimes for the worst.
The show centers around fifteen-year-old Jenna Hamilton, who, like many,yet unwanted,
feels invisible to her peers and desperately wants to find her place--
which is hard to do in a day and age where fitting in means standing out.

Unfortunately, Jenna's visibility comes on the heels of an accident that gives her a not-so-fun stigma.
And while the stigma of her accident could be the curse of her life when the student body mistakes an accident she has for a suicide attempt
Jenna's determined to make it her life's blessing

suicide?? definately not me in high school or today..
"ada jgk intend to do-->but safetly SAVE with my bunches of fren hold me no to over react"
nah..what a lame person i am!!

yet unwanted?? its pretty sure it is suite me. for the 1st place la..
but now..we do have to choose to be with.
either heart or like (taken from the script)

my comments:-

1st of all, am pretty upset the way Jenna choose Jake in stead of Matty.
its preety awkward to date with pop up (hansem) guy and yets his girlfren are just not popular as he does,
and like to see in the public
for a guy la..
for a gul, she definately want that!! right? like DTR!! (define the relationship)
but Jake is nice too. the way they are together is nothing to hidding with.
but Jenna not love Jake.

2nd, how cool is that Jenna parent is!! especially her mom! inspired, energatic and troublesome to Jenna.
hope i do have parents like that..haha..but now. syukur dgn apa yg ada la..

and lastly is about "RED" lipstick.
two series MTV that ive been watch approaching this kind of color!!
did they un proposedly highlight it?? so that i need to buy that lipstick?
arghh...their skin tone are matching.

but for me?
boleh jadi "AWKWARD" plak nntinye kan?
rasa nk cuba pn ada gak nie...ermm..akn di pikirkan nnti.

but overall review from me about this episode?
i definately cant wait the season 2 came off!!!! it's about on 2012!!
wahh..lamanya nk tggu!!

u'olls shuld watch it too! and we can share the story a lot!

y am saying this, because i craving to know, whos the one wrote the letter to Jenna.
and yets, it is possible, Jenna get back together with Matty?

Arrhh...
definately cant wait!!

new!!

Hi there,

as u can sees and heard,
i just upgrade my new layout n my new blog song.
this is what happen when am super up to date things up.
hehe..


hope u like it..and plss allow to be my followers.
cao!

am counting on these days...

what ive do count on these days is:-


1- end of nov, am going to jakarta for class trip
2- going to move to my new house (evendo its not new...but for me is my 1st house)
3- my wedding days (tak sabar nak rasa hidup berdua--*gatai*)
4- my last studying (like 2 years left from now)
5- hope can get promoted to executive. (unless i do talk to my boss about this - tupn bergantung pada kekosongan n rezeki la ye dak?)

2 je la buat setakat ini
~tata~

nak tahu tak??

nak tahu tak??
berapa banyak manga that ive been reading for this couple of month???
i guess its almost reach to 100 - 200 MANGA!!!

gileeee tol!!
buku study takde plak nak wat cmnie ea?
haha..
gara2 manga, aku selalu tido lambat.
berapa lambat aku tido??

ce cuba teka??
ermm..
pling lambat takat nie ialah jam 4 PAGI.
repeat ye, 4 PAGI!!!

then what happen to me?
definitely saya sakit kepala sbb tak cukup tido and tido yang tak menentu..

haih...bila r nk buang tabiat nie..hehe...
enough is enough..
but i dont felt it that way...
banyak lagi manga yang aku ikuti still ongoing..
so nak tak nak..kena r fllow..hehe..

tak boleh kot tinggalkan.. "uuu-yeahhhh~~~"

btw...nak thu tak......
MANGA yang setakat nie yg merangkul anugerah hampir jiwaku tak tenang??

ia adalah:


Fruit Basket
(like my previous blog, i do ada crita sdkit pasal bab ni..dlu tgk anime, skrang baca manga plak)
apa yg membuatkan aku terdetik ntuk bca manga ttg anime nie
its because anime sekerat jalan je..evendo its like normal happy ending
but MANGA is superb to know what exactly the truth happy ending.
walaweii..
sees how this manga hampir jiwaku tak tenang..
that y i gave this MANGA anugerah u knowsss..


dari segi plot crita - cam dalam sastera, klimaks, konfliks, emosi sume cukup la.
n sampaikan gara2 baca kat opis time smua org takde
nsib tak end up dgn menitiskan air mata.
~kaver kot~
tak boleh jadi kalau org tahu, menangis sbb baca MANGA..
haha..
lawak ~ lawak...

so, for readers or people out there yg truly cari manga yg boleh buatkan emosi anda meronta like i do
pls do so to read this MANGA.

definitely 6 star over 5..
it means, pelukis or spe2 yang ada kaitan dalam pembabitan terbitnya MANGA ni
u'olls tlh mmbuatkan saya baca MANGA nie 3 hari, n jam 3 pagi baru tido
so
i solute u..
that all it is about MANGA

x0x0 jenny..chao!!!