feeLing dat im not too useful for living rite Now..
evrY sinGle ting n Details is like "put The bLame on Me"
how can i can B so duMp, like not EvrY singLe mmBers of my Fmily not ApperCIate wat im Duing instead sYing dat Im duing all the Tings X ikHlas n Mngukit..
lg MnyakitkN Ati Ckp im "aNK Kurng Ajr"
im notiCe that My attitude caN HUrt my Mother FeelIng...but she Never Know n notice tHat wat im duing is for good..dia cUma snjung Ank2 dia yg xLwan ckp tuh sume..MUka baik tp TIkam Blakang, tdUH menUduh klu dorG tkt Nk berSuara. cm 2 Ke yg kte Dpt??
lbh teRkilan lg..time Ak blaja, AK perIksa..mak AK tidak Sama Sekali mendOakan KejyaaN ak..tp SbalIKnya apa Kjyaan Ku itu hnyAlah usaHa ak SEmata-mAta..twKal n Bsrah Pda Takdir. itU ke yg Ptt ak rsa n Dgr.
AK Sdar PrgAi ak cm Xfkir pRasaaN org, SUara AK kdg2 tggI..tp dlm pe AK ckp, ak xde Niat nak Kurang AJr pd Sume Org..tp Npe maK ak Sndri leh Trasa sgt, sdgKan dia Thu ak dh Cmnie??
ak Nk Ubah prgai?? Ak CUba..tp Ak xle nak Wat..
Ak dpt RsaKan Sume Org Bek ngn Ak sbb ak leh Bg wet? tlg bila dorg ssh? cm 2 ke?? AK pnh dgr mak ak sndri Ckp, Once AYh x dok ngn Mak, KLu adik n Alg nk ikt ayh, mak Leh je DOk ngn aGh..tp apKh dia cKp 2 ikhlS?? dia SnjUng org Yg LemAH gemALai bertoPengkan tLam 2 Muka? tp Bile ssH cmnI ke dia cKp?
ak pndam pe Je slMa nie..Bile ak Nak Luahkan..all the TIng dosNt camE out, Like SOmting in mouth!
i do care mY words..but She Nver reFuse that wheN somting Wrong, it came back 2 Me..
Its reAlly came to the Mother Days..
when diS ting Happen, im felT like is HopeLess to "berbaik" ngn org yg kt dlm rumah 2..
aleh2 Kena Pijak Kao2!...
Mak Sndri pn Dh Kluarkan xkn Mkan Dt yg SeseN dTg dr aKU..ak Trima..
sdgKan dri Ak MUla stat Kje ps SPM, time Prktikal, ak xPrnh Pn lUpa bg aPa yg Ak dpt..dri Keciknye Amaun tuh smpi r skung..
tp Bile DIa Ckp cm2..Ank SPe xkcwa ngn Sikap Mak dia?
apA yg Aku ckP sume Nie, evendo pemBca kt Luar saNa mngtakN kte Sbgai AnAk ptt berAlah..
tp pe persaaN korng kLu kOrd di Tmpt Aku..
PaPen Ak LuahKan nie Dpn Mata Ayah Ak sndIri, n AKu dhPn berLutut dpN mak AK, ak mNtak maaF tp Ak reLa perGI jaUH klu AkU rsa Sdh n Kcwa Bile ak Blik BrdPan ngn Mak aku 24/7 if all My siBling not in house already.
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